Waiting on the Lord. This is something worth waiting for. When we make the choice to surrender our lives to God we are fully entrusting Him with helping us grow through life. We make thousands of decisions every day, most are so minor we don’t even consider it a decision. Will I get up the first time my alarm clock rings? Hit doze? Wait for the next buzz? Pick out todays clothes before or after a shower, do I have time to wash and dry my hair? What will I do, Did I decide what I wanted to wear last night? Hair – up, down. Makeup – eyeliner today? Earrings? Which shoes? Which socks? Do I need socks? Can I get away with flip-flops in October, it is 75 today!? Get the drift?
The more important decisions we make in our lives, to move to a new home, buy a different car, how to deal with a business issue, the way to talk to a child about a phone call from their teacher explaining they really believe your child should stay back this year. Dating, Marriage, Love, A choice to change your career. What does God want for us to do? I have found the more I turn my life over to God the easier it can be most of the time to discern what my next step should be. Other times. . . not so much. This is where trusting in Him and waiting for His direction comes into play.
While it is important to complete all the steps you can on your own – research cars, new/used/mileage/cost/insurance rates (or) Is it time for me to move to a job that I will find more emotionally satisfying that serves Him and others? These are big decisions that we can do our own leg work on – then turn it prayerfully over to our Lord and ask the Spirit to Guide us, give us strength, wisdom and direction.
One time I was offered a position, the closest to what I think I could choose while earning enough pay to survive – and serve. It was for a non-profit start-up. They needed an Office Manager/Bookkeeper who was also available to work with special needs clients, teaching them financial skills, banking, balancing a checkbook, how to shop wisely etc. Unfortunately as a start up they offered no health insurance and that was a sign for me that this just was not the job I needed or could afford to take at that time.
By the grace of God where I am today. I was able provide and to get my youngest son through high school in the small town environment he was born into. I am also able to attend mass before work (slipping into the office a few minutes late – but approved), blare my K-Love all day long and chat with people about God off and on throughout the day. Pretty cool for a secular job, that’s where diciples are called to be. I used to toy with thoughts of working in Appalachia or the Southwest at border crossing locations. Who knows, maybe one day that’s where God will bring me.
Meanwhile, the other major areas in my life I have to trust in Him. He leads and I follow. I leaped and though I haven’t sprouted wings, I seem to be bouncing up and down on that safety net from below. He is there, He will provide.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, on your own intelligence do note rely; In all ways be mindful of him, and he will make straight your paths.”