I have been looking for work since June. Very stressful.
Because I have my toddler grandson with me in the evening I rarely watch the evening news. I do however do the news roll on my smart phone. Babies crib is still in my room, when I settle him in for the night I usually lay on my bed for a few minutes while he settles down. Perhaps not the smartest habit – it is what it is .
Tonight I came across a story of a wedding photographer elbow pushing the stepmother of the groom out-of-the-way so she could take more pictures. I have a feeling the photographer was a friend of the bride. Looking at the video it was clear she had her first kiss pictures before stepmom stepped in the way – and regardless, photographer or not you do not physically push someone else out of the way like that. What has happened to manners and civility?
Yesterday morning the news scroll showed me a now deceased priest has been accused of child sexual abuse that is said to have happened decades ago. I looked at the archdiocese website. Though they stated no moves for six years there are tens of moves listed this past month or so and some include out-of-state, *more than one listed as no longer in diocese and removed from mailing lists – oh?!!
Business As Usual.
I realized looking at this list that I cannot and will never trust this religious church. This does not mean there are not clergy whom I trust there is. However, the church overall, for me simply is no longer a house of God. I can’t fall for the line of the church being the “good” people “there” because the church is all over the world in many religions and for Jesus, it was never a building and His love is not within an institution.
As a survivor of domestic violence I would ask this – if it was wise for me to leave my husband/abuser even though he could appear good and nice at times, knowing the sickness within – why would anyone really stay within the walls of the Roman Catholic church and support it’s sin?
So, I find myself struggling to find some balance with this and with what has been asked.
I have a separate article in mind to write over the next day or two on this topic.
Last night I woke during the night and . . . picked up my phone to read for few minutes. I read the news of the mass murder in California, many young people it seems who were or were attending local Christian colleges, out line dancing for the night.
Political news and rumors abound.
Last week, Mathew Shepard was laid to rest in the lower level of the Washington Cathedral. Twenty years after his horrific murder – a hate crime as he was out as a homosexual.
Over the last week or two, also in the news have been stories about a young woman, Christian singer Lauren Daigle. She has broken record sales recently for her music. When she was asked, and did perform on the program “Ellen” she was attacked for playing music for a lesbian, for “them”, “gays” , “sinners” etc. etc. Knowing this she stated the following:
“I think the second we start drawing lines around which people are able to be approached and which aren’t, we’ve already completely missed the heart of God,” Daigle said during a recent interview with WAY-FM Radio. (Quote published in People Magazine).
“I don’t have all the answers in life and I’m definitely not gonna act like I do, but the one thing that I know for sure is I can’t choose who I’m supposed to be kind to and who I’m supposed to show love to and who I’m not, because that’s the mission right?” she continued. “Be who Christ was to everyone.”
As a Christian, I know I am not perfect. We all sin (though I didn’t realize missing mass was a “mortal sin” until the other day – seems like blackmailing people to go to mass. I do love Jesus and all He has taught and represents.
I don’t understand why I haven’t found a good job yet, I can’t solve the hours my son works but I can love the baby as a mother and I do. I won’t uproot and move out-of-state as my son asks so I will lose them probably at some point, to their new lives if we can’t figure something out.
I cannot fathom why any man would choose to murder kids in cold blood nor will I ever understand the misplaced hatred toward God’s children who love someone of the same-sex. I can however speak on these topics, I can love these people because at the end of the day isn’t that what life is all about?
Lauren Daigle doesn’t seem to be affiliated with any particular denomination but she has been a faithful disciple of Jesus, performing for hundreds of thousands over the years. Now, she is on “main stream” TV. Look up her website and her performance on The Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon of 11/7/18.
Look Up ChildLauren Daigle
“Where are You now
When darkness seems to win?
Where are You now
When the world is crumbling?”